It's afternoon now. Niceish sunny day but you can feel winter is coming along.

I've done most of what I needed to do today. Was woken by the alarm early at like 8, lazed around in my bed till about 8:40 or so snoozing the alarm till I finally got up properly. I didn't have time to make a vegetable juice concotion this morning so instead I made a smoothie of whey protein, pawpaw, one raw egg and some raw cacao seeds. Initially I was going to make it with banana instead of pawpaw but I had forgotten that I specifically purchased the pawpaw instead. Ramble ramble ramble...

Anyways, off I went to the dental surgeon in Wynberg for my appointment at 10am. His office is fucking in the middle of nowhere in this random shopping centre but I somehow stumbled across it and had to wait around for about 35 minutes till he could see me. He basically said the same as my other dentist, the wisdom teeth have to come out along with the two dodgy root canals. He asked me if I'm experiencing any pain or anything at the moment and I'm not fortunately and hopefully it won't be too bad after the surgery. My life is kind of in his hands, since if he messes up I could lose feeling in my face permanently, joyous times ;) I guess it's the risk one has to take though.

I lazed around home and then some dude came to have a look at my window measurements to put in this anti-moquito screen. The mosquitos here are like crazy mad blood sucking vampires so I want to put a stop to them. Just waiting for a quote now. The kettlebell exercises went well today, I'm less stiff now than before, hehehehe :P Had a nice lunch of fried chicken (in coconut oil of course) and a large green salad. I'm feeling a bit hungry now 2 or 3 hours later so this whole high protein thing hasn't adjusted my metabolism just quite yet but I don't feel as tired as I normally do at this time I think (haha, subjective reality anyone?).

Well I might go to roots tonight and see tegz and the crowd. For now though it's poker time!!! (please poker gods let me run well!!!) Hahaha, just lost set over set for stacks on 5/10. Damn you poker gods :/

Day 1

Subjective reality. That's basically what it comes down to. There is only one moment and your feelings change from day to day and month to month. I want to start tracking my feelings, hence it's time to start a blog. Here perhaps, will be a map of my life.

Today I spent time with the interesting and outgoing side of my family, Jean, Janine and Philip. It's been cool to have them down here. They seem to really dig it that I'm playing poker professionally, Philip especially. Jean is a very talented musician, so the two first sons have ended up with interesting jobs.

I didn't have as much as a blast as I would have liked to though. I've possibly developed panic disorder from a Marijuana overdose 1.5 months ago and life feels strange at the moment. If Jean was down here 2 months ago I would have taken him out every night and we would have partied our asses off I'm sure. As things are now I've reverted back to being a health freak and obsessing about sunlight, exercise and diet.

My days seem to be centred around making my vegetable juice and smoothies, doing my exercise, making sure I get to spend some time outside, driving around like a mad thing in search of ingredients to cook healthy recipes and doing beserker like research online about health. Of course this confuses my poor little brain because all the health "experts" have different idea's and opinions on what's right and wrong.

At the moment I seem to be going for the high protein and low carb style diet. I'm feeling a little moody at the moment and getting the night itches again.

The highlight of the day (apart from seeing my family) has been researching wheatgrass again, that's the next step for me in my quest for health, drinking shots of wheatgrass every day. Let's hope it's not quite as disghusting as last time, hehe. The testimonials from online seem pretty convincing, but I've come to realise that there's so much goddamn anecdotal evidence on the internet. It's hard to know what to believe.

Tomorrow I'm off to see a dental surgeon about getting 2 infected root canals and my wisdom teeth extracted under general anaesthetic. It's not something I'm looking forward to but apparently it has to be done. I have this weird feeling like I can feel a vein on the left hand side of my head sometimes and I hope it's not related. Maybe just paranoia? Although I've had this feeling for months now it seems.

Tonight is the first night that I sleep in near total darkness, since I got some dark coloured blinds installed finally!!!. w00t!

I think that's enough for now, I'm going to try update my thoughts on a daily basis (hahahaha, resolutions resolutions)